Day 8: September 26th, 2018
9:00 a.m. I smoked a cigarette last night around midnight. Which was technically today, so I’m adding that one to today’s count. Good grief! Anyway, I woke up today at 8:30 a.m., made some coffee, and here I am! Hey…I didn’t forget to create my new blog post today, y’all!
I plan to create little videos throughout the day and compile them into one video tonight. I just feel that I can express my emotions better on video than I can by typing or writing.
Oh yeah, if you would like to follow my videos and you are not on Facebook, I now have a YouTube account! Just click here to check it out. My videos are not fancy or professional at all. lol I literally just use the equipment I have on hand to create them (my iPhone, a couple of apps, and myself). My hope is to inspire someone out there who is struggling with this addiction, like myself. Anyway, I am going to get off of here for now. I need to go get busy doing stuff so I don’t think about my cravings.
2:50 p.m. Oh my gosh, I have already smoked 11 cigarettes?!? Thank goodness we have church tonight, that will keep me busy for a couple of hours.
Anyway, my son taught me how to use Snapchat today. Yeah. Haha. My videos will definitely have a creative twist now! Bahahahaha! That app is too much fun!
On a serious note, I have noticed that I have a tendency to smoke when I’m bored. So, I will be trying to find things to keep me occupied for the remainder of this day. I’ll talk to y’all later, I need to work on a sign for the Firefly Art Festival.
9:45 p.m. As I type this I’m smoking cigarette #16 for today. Yes, I said 16. I forgot to make my herbal tea today. I guess I was just too busy trying to keep myself busy, and not bored, that I totally forgot!
I have definitely noticed a difference too. When I forget to make my herbal tea, I seem to get irritated easily. And when you have kids, being irritated is not good. I apologized many, many times to my kids today for being rude. Which then stressed me out, because I don’t like being rude, it’s just not who I am. So I ended up smoking more than I had planned.
This is so much harder than I thought it would be, but I am not giving up! I’m going to keep going until I am nicotine FREE! I’m going to break this chain, with the good Lord’s help.
P.S. Tonight I plan to write myself a note, so I don’t forget to make my herbal tea!
Goodnight y’all, and God bless. ❤️