Day 2: September 20th, 2018
12:00 p.m. I just woke up. I didn’t sleep well and my neck hurts. I guess I slept weird while I was having totally strange dreams. I went to bed around 11:00 p.m. and woke up several times throughout the night. I will probably make me a cup of my sleepy time tea and hopefully get some better sleep tonight.
I ended up smoking the last 3 cigarettes + 2 Herbal cigarettes last night. I guess jumping from 31 cigarettes a day down to 20 cigarettes a day was harder than I thought, but I’m glad I turned to the herbal smoking blend instead of tobacco.
The herbal smoking blend doesn’t taste bad at all. It was actually quite pleasant and it suppressed the urge I had for nicotine.
Right now I’m drinking a cup of coffee and smoking a cigarette. I made 18 cigarettes for today, as planned, and I’ll make some herbal cigarettes if needed.
Today I plan to keep my hands busy when I feel an urge coming on by homeschooling my kiddos, sipping herbal teas, doing housework, and maybe working on some herbal products for the Firefly Art Festival.
Anyway, I am going to get off of here for now. I’ll write some more later this afternoon.
3:32 p.m. I have smoked 8 cigarettes in freaking 3 hours and 32 minutes!!! What the heck? I still have 10 left. I am trying to stay busy, but it’s hard to push the cravings out of my mind. Seriously, so.freaking.hard.
Anyway, I just thought I would write that down, so y’all would know how I’m feeling right now.
I have another cigarette box thing, it holds 14 cigarettes like my little metal one. I am thinking about making Herbal cigarettes to put in it and try replacing a cigarette with an Herbal cigarette here and there today. That or I may just put some in my wooden pipe that I like to use with my pipe tobacco. Anyway, just some thoughts I’m throwing out there. I’ll talk to y’all later.
5:00 p.m. I have smoked 10 freaking cigarettes already. Geez louise! I know, I need to stop beating myself up. I need to take it slow. I need to do some breathing exercises. Yada, yada, yada. My husband has already said these things to me. Maybe I am a little irritated? I think so. I know so. Anyway, I’m going to go make some chamomile tea. It usually helps me chill out. We shall see. I’ll talk to y’all later.
P.S. Writing all of these thoughts down is helping. I think. At least I feel like it is.
5:24 p.m. I made myself a tiny pot of chamomile + holy basil tea.
Breathing in the aroma + doing my deep breathing exercises + praying + slowly sipping and enjoying. Why didn’t I do this earlier? I think I’ll play around with the different herbs I have in my pantry to find the perfect blend.
8:36 p.m. I have now smoked 14 cigarettes. The chamomile + holy basil tea blend helped me relax when I drank a cup earlier, so tonight I will drink the other cup (I made two) before I go to bed. I plan to make another two cups for tomorrow.
The recipe I used was 2 tbsp. chamomile + 1 tsp. holy basil + 2 cups boiling water. Cover + steep 10-15 minutes. Strain + enjoy.
If I feel I need support mid-day tomorrow, I will play around with some more herbs I have to find a helpful blend.
12:13 a.m. I totally failed today. I ended up making 20 freaking cigarettes today. My husband said, “At least it wasn’t 31.” True, but my goal was 18. So, tomorrow my goal is 18. Again. Geez louise. Anyway, I’ll get off of here and record a video for Day 2 and post it to my Facebook page. If you would like to follow me on there, the address is: http://www.facebook.com/harvestmoon78